I feel the walls closing around me
In ways I don’t know how to fight
Can’t keep my head above the water
Unless somehow I know I’m right
I feel the sensation of drowning
They tell me it feels good somehow
You say you’ll catch me when I falter
One day I’ll say I’m done for now
I hear myself breathing and blinking
Imagined battles I can’t win
I always wake to something normal
While all my thoughts are caving in
I feel the sensation of sinking
Further than I would allow
It feels so nice and yet so horrible
One day I’ll say I’m done for now