I’m having trouble keeping emotions inside of my head
for all that i suffer hoping i hear what you never had said
i still feel your presence though i saw you laying dead in that bed
got too much depression this shit is ripping me down into shreds
father I’m sorry for all this sinning I’m doing but all these
drugs in my body keep me grounded and keep me going
everyday i miss your love and i know that you fucking know it
everyday i wanna die but i can’t ever fucking show it
no one will ever know this pain feels
i got future of misdemeanors and pain pills
i just keep on the window watching the rain spill
i just keep living life hoping this pain heals
we gave you all we had but you still died
its already been years but i still cry
i remember you were here this don’t feel right
i remember holding out hands letting ashes take flight
I’m nothing you would want me to be, father I’m sorry
no one knows our pain besides me, i cannot breathe
ill never forget you cause i know that you still love me
i know that I’m not who i should be, father I’m sorry